It's nearly July already!

Holiday all done and dusted. Had a fabulous time, and for the very first time I didn't give a fig about food (stepped in a few of them - figs - they are awfully sticky on your shoe). It was marvellous, liberating and another revelation to discover that holidays are not about food, or worrying about food, or having to eat cause its x o'clock.  It was brilliant. I ate when I was hungry. I ate what I wanted, which wasn't a great deal as it turns out.  I gained a hearty one pound in two weeks.  

Which leads me to conclude that successful weight loss is so much more about the head than the body.  I've spent many hours before, during and after this holiday giving serious consideration to becoming a consultant.  It's something I have wanted to do for very many years, and now I'm thinner, it's a dream that is within my grasp.  I've been a bit of a cheeky monkey and joined a Slimming World group - for research! I've signed up for 5 weeks and plan to observe the highs and lows of the psychology of the group, the dynamics and the motivation they gather from each other and the leader. I will also need to understand the plan a bit I think, to aid my cover!  I can't honestly see though, how a plan that has no restriction whatsoever on the volume of some food types can have so much success, I wonder if the winning members have been secretly doing a vlcd on the side?  Their magazine is just entirely dreadful, hardly a page that isn't about food, or becoming a consultant.  Of course, if too many succeed on their plan they'll have no members!

I've been poorly sick today with a hideous AF visit, once in a while my endo really takes hold and there is just nothing I can do but let it pass, so today has been spent in hot salty baths and lying in bed. It's passing now, but it ain't half horrible! BUT this month - no carb cravings, no deviating from plan, 100% in the zone, it's time to get to this target I keep thinking about, then I can make those dreams come true :)