Day 60

Oh my life, what a day.  I've challenged myself this week and I think it's a challenge too far that I'm not quite fully prepared for as yet.  Which in itself is fine as it's a learning point to explore and find out more about.  Part one of my challenge is to not get weighed this week, not until weighing in day.  That part is ok, it's certainly not easy but I've moved the scales away so they don't stare at me endlessly when I'm having one of the very many loo trips necessary to flush out all this fat.  The other part is to strip back the plan and just do packs for the week.

First few days, ok, but I could feel a rebellion brewing up!  So, I decided, that today, being in the middle of my week and being a Sunday, which was always my hardest day to stay on any plan before this, that I would allow protein and veg today and extra packs if I wanted to.  It's that time of year when everyone is updating Sunday status's with talks of roast dinners, and I just allowed the idea of all that to get inside my head and strenghten my giving in muscle!  So, purchased 200g of rump steak and leeks.  I planned to eat it all in one go to get it over and done with, but couldn't face more than half the steak, so I stuck with 100g.  Had it with the leeks and a pack of mac cheese.  Then mid afternoon I fancied a wafer with a coffee, so I had one.  Then I had the rest of the steak and another mac cheese for tea, and a chocolate truffa bar.

In itself it was a sort of experiment, I've done 59 full days of this without a single cheat (apart from a small onplan overdose of smoked salmon!) and I was curious what it would be like to feel too full - before starting this journey that was my standard feeling, and I wondered if I missed it.  I have the answer to that now - NO!  It's awful, I feel sick as a dog and so darn uncomfortable!  I don't want that amount of food and I sure as heck don't need it.  So, still on plan, didn't have anything I shouldn't have, but an interesting experiment to give in to my desires and cravings in a controlled way.

Feels like I'll be staying on plan over Christmas right now, but we'll reserve a judgement on that til we get there, certainly not making any decisions right now, got another 29 days of fat shedding before that one gets here!